A fork falls out of my pocket

I was walking down the stairs, and stopped suddenly. A fork that I had in my pocket falls out and lands on my foot. My sister sees this and I say "shhhh" and she starts laughing.
That is all.

Tankooni un moog

Roar!

Hiya
For once I am not writing in a more gloomy mood (although I am a little bit frustrated, but more on that later) and it is the end of the year :/
This year has been...different than other years of my life. Yes I know that every year is different but let us put down the semantics for once, shall we?
So yah back to stuff
First off, I have been out more than before, hanging out w/ friends (well actually mostly w/ one friend), I have seen more movies in theaters this year than I think I have seen total in previous years, been kicked out of my house (don't ask cause it won't make sense the reasoning behind it), been working for a full year, built what seems to be a strong friendship, started two blogs (this one and another), beat Cave Story and got a decent run time, driven a bunch, and a bunch of other stuff.
Yah the list is boring and all but meh, I don't care.
I didn't really do anything I wanted to, well I'm not really sure. I don't really remember what I wanted to do this past year, which probably means I didn't do it or the more likely thing that I didn't have anything that I really wanted to do.
For the next year, I am also not sure what I want to do.
-Get my secret project started
-I will be going to college (I hope) in the Fall so that will be very different.
-I want to draw more
-want to do more stuff
-read more books
-convince Mouse that she is a good artist
-um...stuff I don't remember/my mind is blocking out cause it doesn't want certain people to hear about whatever it is

Anyway, I may actually start to post doodles/pictures/other random stuff at some point, as well as this project thing that I have been meaning to start for some time now. No you will not get any hints at this time

Um yah, lost my thought. Already said most of what I was going to anyway, so to a new year "Smile, tomorrow will be worse"
(I was planning on using this quote anyway Mouse if your reading this, it has nothing to do with the fact that you recently said it again)

Expect some possible posting at some point
Moog

*sigh*

Already it is December, and it feels like everything is still the way it has been just more pressure or some other word I can not think of.
I have to get my two college applications in at some point, but I have to get stuff together and um other stuff I don't know right now. Damn this college thing is nerve racking. Really nervous bout it I think somewhere in my head. I don't want to go out into that world where I shall be on my own nor do I want to stay where I am, except for a few reasons. Being on my own scares me to a high degree. Lost this train of thought.
There goes my quite, kids are home.
There's snow on the ground now, not much and it is not great snow either. O well. I want to have more time to do the stuff that is on my list of stuff to do, but I keep losing track of time and doing other things. Discontinuity is a common theme in these posts.
I was going to go see New Moon last Saturday with Mouse, but the weather intervened, or so it seems. I've been reading the series although lately my reading habits have been very on-off, with more off than on. Although I did read all of Bob and George, which was quite good. You should totally go read it.
Today I had an xkcd inspired doodle zone (meaning I drew stick figures that are sorta influenced by xkcd and I was zoning out for most of Calculus). That sheet has a bunch of stick figures on it now.
Now can anyone tell me why only my right hand is cold yet both of my hands are equally exposed?
*sigh* I did have a point in mind when I started this post but as it typically does, the post dissolves into the driveling rambles of my mind. Well at least it let me have something to focus on while my mind recuperated from the slight depression that surfaced near the end of the day today. Well maybe it just distracted me but whatever, it is close enough.
Still rambling
Distracted
Words
grrr i rly wanna color on my wall
Ok, here is a question for you folk that aren't out there that just randomly resurfaced into my mind that was formed when analyzing what other people are doing
Do people subconciously, conciously as well, bring people close only to hurt them more?
Hmm I don't feel like addressing this topic right now though but I'll just let the question sit there anyway.
Hmm I'm thinking about starting to stay afterschool more to work on my homework and try to get it done. Although I'll need to find a place that is not the library, I love the library but the main problem is that it quite distracting and I need to find somewhere that is not distracting. If I need to I shall work in there, but an empty classroom would work wonderfully. Doubt I'll be able to do that though. As with most of my ideas though I'll probably not act on it without outside force, o well.

Well it's four so I'm getting off this computer and doing my homework, or attempting to :P
the first of the moog people is wanting than he can have
~We wrote a prelude

I don't know

Not really sure where I'm going to go with this but well I feel like I have got to get things off my mind, and this is where I sort of feel like I can.

For much of my life I've been told I'm a happy person, and well I think I sort of am. But the thing is though for some time now I really only appear so, but am not really that much inside. Today was the first time someone actually seemed to notice this (if others have noticed before they haven't said anything). Not really sure what to say after this, probably will just end up as another rambling post that accomplishes nothing except for making myself feel a little bit better, but all this is really surface stuff. My mind (maybe others to but I do not know since I'm not in other's heads) seems to be easily attachable to ideas, easily stuck on things, and has a problem with letting go. My mind is me I guess, seems like I have more than one mind, one voice. I would wish it would be quite except wishing is not good and I do not truly understand what actual quietness is. Life does not have much of a meaning to me, so since part of me wants to survive I find things to attach to. Friends, thoughts, ideas, games, doing things; all things that tend to attach to. I feel lost a lot and attach my mind to something and keep it, typically destroying whatever it is in the long run. I push people away because of hate and fear. I cower, hide, run, unintentionally and sometimes intentionally mentally/emotionally hurt others. I don't like to hurt others. I don't really know why. And well my train of thought on this part has well sort of ended. This post solves nothing, none of them have, none of them will. This probably isn't even what is really going on in my head.
Many people seem to live for 2 things besides fear/ignorance, sex and raising children. sex I have no interest in at all. Raising a kid maybe but doubtful. I would not want to do that alone and who would want to put up with me anyway (also I doubt i would do well as a parent). I have more thoughts on this but I really don't care much about them.

I really don't know why I wrote this post, as I stated it does not really have a purpose. More than likely I'm just running away from my thoughts by putting them into words. It doesn't really solve anything but as a creature of habit I will just keep being a coward till I break the habit or something else breaks it, but I don't want that and am pretty sure that's not even possible for someone else to break someone else's habit.

Anyway time to go eat some grilled cheese and go to my venture crew meeting.
Moog

Ouch

My knee is bothering me. Just rode from home to the doctor's and to the Rite Aid in the center of town to drop it off there running on no sleep. My left knee is bothering me.
I'm at the public library at the moment mainly cause I don't think I could make it home at this exact point in time.
I cleaned my room today, although I have a feeling my dad won't think it's clean so there's a problem there. It wasn't really messy in the first place if ya ask me.
I think I may have found what I may spend my spending money on next but I'm not going to tell you people who aren't reading this or if by chance you are you won't find out anyway, at least not until some time later.

Hmm I think I may go upload some new deviantions now.
Still gotta catch up on the other blog, but I'm lazy and I'll do it later.

What is a Moog Maraudi you ask? That is for you to figure out and if you do tell me, I would like to know.

Marauder(s) of Moog Xac is now done writing this post.
Thank you for not reading.
Moog

(psst my knee feels a little better now, still hungry though)

I'm Back

Well I am back from trip to Philmont Scout Ranch in Cimarron, New Mexico. I have much to say, much to share, and I'm finally home. This post shouldn't be huge because of the fact that I have stuff I gotta get done before my dad gets home and such + I don't think I'm allowed to use the computer.
At some point I'll be typing up and edited copy of my journal I kept on the trail there about it and such so well ya. While on the trail I had a little bit of insight on another part of myself that makes me tick, or at least so it appears. I'm not sure if I shall post this or not.
I have a ton of stuff to catch up on, as well as a discussion at the other blog I is part of.
In other news my neck is now happier since I has something that arrived in the mail while I was gone, and for once I have something with pink on it on me. And no it's not say anything, it's just that I lie what it is. Most likely by the end of the week I shall post what it is...maybe, but it depends on how busy I am and the such.
I still have no idea when I have to work. I am planning on maybe going in to check at some point in the near future of today.
I can't wait to give the stuffs I got for peoples, but I shall have to wait. What that stuff is I shall not say.
I am happy to be home, although Philmont was quite awesome. One of my most favorite parts, the sunset from Mt Phillips.
I'll eventually get many pics up on my deviantArt account and after someone in my crew makes the group I shall probably be uploading all of the pics, good or bad, to Facebook (which I dislike but this is for a purpose).
O yes, I read The Wee Free Men and it is good, and am almost done with a Hat Full of Sky which is also good. I think I shall start using some of the Nac Mac Feegle words, and also it is amazing what books can do :) (more on that maybe at some later time)
Well at this point I think I have to bid you all non-existent readers farewell.
I've uploaded 2 pics so far
A Hill In The Morning
Sitting on Lover's Leap
Follow me gallery feed for more stuff in the future if you want.

Crivens!
Un Maruadi Moog is off to do probably boring things.
*wacks you with a frying pan*

Quackers

Listening To: All my music on shuffle
Reading: Reaper Man
Watching: Samurai Jack, The King and I, The Music Man
Playing: HL2:E1, Magical Starsign
Eating: nuthin atm
Drinking: nuthin atm (prob water soon)
What's on my mind: wishing to not be grounded, trying to figure out vry weird feelings, and other stuff

Heya people who probably won't read this.
I has not posted for a bit, mostly cause I haven't felt like writing.
So summer has started. The end of the school year went fairly well. Didn't exactly have all the classes I wanted to for next year but I switched um up the best I could. I had to get rid of Modern Lit, and Music theory but I got Graphics Arts 1. Modern Lit I wanted to take, the teacher + the class as well were factors, Music theory not so much. But I was able to get it B block so I has two friends in the classroom that block now ^_^, Mouse and Karawasa. Mouse is in 2 and Kar is in 1 with me. It's a full year course so 2 blocks total with friends ^_^. Also had to move my English 12A to A block first semester which happens to be with Mouse as well. I am also taking AP calculus (D block first semester), Personal Finance(C-6 first sem), Engineering and Design (A-block 2nd sem), AP calculus Lab (C-6 2nd sem), and Physics H (D-block 2nd sem).
Seems like this shall be a good year. Will be able to go to 1st and 2nd lunch so that means I shall hopefully see more friends there + more time to do hw and the such.
Got all A's and B's on report card.
One thing that really bothers me is my ability to not try in school and still get these grades and be able to do this stuff, I don't really try vry hard I just can't. It just doesn't make sense.

So now for some more current stuffs.
My first week of summer was well sorta hectic.
Had work a couple times during the day. The other days I helped with Campinvention which was rly only um i don't remember but only day i was able to stay ofr the whole day, the other days i onlyhelped for like 2 hrs than i had to work. Friday I had to leave for a backpacking trip up in Maine. Mt. Katahdin. We didn't do the full hike cause of weather forcast and visability, o well. I think at some point that week I ma have hung out with Mouse but I don't remember which day, I think it was one of the days after work, Mouse if you remember could ya remind me?
After that well I didn't have enough hours from work so I am grounded from the compy and are not allowed to be home during the day (Why I am able to be here now is for later). So Monday my dad let me use his car and well basically I went to McDonald's (where I work), to talk to the managers as well as get my check. Got my check and cashed it. Then I waited till around 10 to go talk to manager that does scheduling totalk about the hours and such. After that well I sat around in the car reading/listening to music in the Stop & Shop parking lot for a bit. At some point hung out with Mouse and went to Wilton to see if Nelson's (a candy store where they make all the candy by, well there is some i think that isn't but it mostly is), but it wasn't cause they close for summer or actually I think they go somewhere else or something I don't know. After that we tried the art store but have our luck it's closed on Monday's. Ended up doing a small walk around one of the local trails. Hmm mind went blank as for stuff after this.
Went home at some point after dad got home. Had pizza and had to talk to him again bout stuffs. That's when I got grounded from compo cause I didn't have enough hours. Tuesday I had my physical. bleh. I am healthy and stuff. Talked to doctor (I has new one now, old one moved back to Canada) about stuffs. One of the things wasa way to possibly get off my ADHD meds (Concerta 54mg). He suggestd one thing we could do is tapering the dosage every month. I had this thought b4 as well, I may end up trying this, if it doesn't work completely at least maybe to get one a lower dosage. Just stopping hard with the meds makes things much much worse. Can't describe much but if you know may know what I'm talking about but not many people read this I think or really any at all.
After my physical I came and started to scrub the porch a lil bit. Basically getting all the mildew and stuff off the porch cause they are gonna stain it. Punishment this is.
Everyone but me and sis left for DC that afternoon. I hooked up compy to the TV in the living room.
Played games that night and talked and did stuff o ncompy till ike 3 in the morning I think it was.
Wednesday saw Up with Mouse. twas a good movie. I wants to draw something from it but I want a ref pic(s) from the movie and well it's still in theater's and stuff so ya. Thursday was rainy so I couldn't really work on the porch. Firday worked on the porch for a bit, ended up getting chem burns from the bleach stuff on the tips of my fingers on my right hand. No gloves i had, now I do have gloves though ^_^ although I'm not gonna work on it till my hand heals more.
Will probably get in trouble but o well, not gonna risk injuring self further with it.

It was supposed to get done b4 they get back which is tomorrow evening.Today I had work. 6hr shift. Went by rly fast which I like. I have an 8 hr one tomorrow ending at 4. I like breakfast shift cause breakfast seems to be easier as well as go by faster. Also people tend to be in a better mood during that shift. I also like having the rest of the day to do whatever. Like today I was out @ 3. I have a total of 27 hrs this week. Still most likely not enough to get me ungrounded. My dad wants me to do something on the days I'm not working, I am probably gonna volunteer at the local Boys & Girls Club. If I do than if it's like last year I should hopefully have compy access when there is a open compy. Last I did odd jobs and when I wasn't doing those I was monitoring the compy lab they have there.

I still have a bunch of stuff to do today/tonight b4 they get home tomorrow, but I wanna write this first cause well for the first time for a bit I feel like writing a blog post.

OK so since I'm grounded and whatnot from the compy that means I will probably be doing lots of other things. Probably watching stuff on my Zune, listening to music (assuming I don't get my Zune taken away), hpefully drawing (I has some stuff I wanna do with drawing :P u'll c), reading (hopefully a bunch of discworld books), and well whatever else. Also hopefully will be able to hang out with friends this summer. Typically I don't cause well none of us ever rly hang out for some reason. I have other things that I want to do as well. And if I can there are things I want to do on compy as well. I wants to try and get better at drawing objects and people. Like representing them so they are identified as such but not necessarily _realistic_. I mean maybe look like it could be real but in the real we perceive. I dunno how to exactly describe it.

This summer may be a good one despite my basically non-existent computer access at home (like that's any diff than previous summers).

Indigo is sitting on my mousepad :P
Hehe interesting Link

Hmm lately my stomach has been well weird feeling. I dunno, it's sorta annoying.

O yes I have caught up on The Far Reaches, Flaky Pastry, Beartato, Teh Gladiators, Tiny Kitten Teeth, and Castle Vidcons. Those are all webcomics. At some point I'm gonna read all of Penny Arcade. I also finished Feet of Clay the other day. Is a good book and I started Reaper Man. Gonna see if I can obtain some more Discworld books. I also may finish another book I have about ADHD sorta stuff and people with it and how to deal with it and that sort of thing. It is interesting but as i was reading it last it only refreshed many things that I had figured out b4 myself. Tis an interesting read though. Haven't picked it up since I started, twas depressed when I read, I needed to get my mind off it so my dad lemme borrow it from him.

I also completed Portal again, and worked some on Half-Life2: Episode 1.

Hmm I can't think of much else to write for now. I may or may not be able to post again depending on what I am doing and compy access away from home, and also depending on wether I feel like writing or not.

Random most recent picture of self I have
So with that I bid you people ado
Merry International Free Hug Day
*hug*
And happy 4th of July to I guess

Moog Master #1 is well not really doing much
Moog