*sigh*

Already it is December, and it feels like everything is still the way it has been just more pressure or some other word I can not think of.
I have to get my two college applications in at some point, but I have to get stuff together and um other stuff I don't know right now. Damn this college thing is nerve racking. Really nervous bout it I think somewhere in my head. I don't want to go out into that world where I shall be on my own nor do I want to stay where I am, except for a few reasons. Being on my own scares me to a high degree. Lost this train of thought.
There goes my quite, kids are home.
There's snow on the ground now, not much and it is not great snow either. O well. I want to have more time to do the stuff that is on my list of stuff to do, but I keep losing track of time and doing other things. Discontinuity is a common theme in these posts.
I was going to go see New Moon last Saturday with Mouse, but the weather intervened, or so it seems. I've been reading the series although lately my reading habits have been very on-off, with more off than on. Although I did read all of Bob and George, which was quite good. You should totally go read it.
Today I had an xkcd inspired doodle zone (meaning I drew stick figures that are sorta influenced by xkcd and I was zoning out for most of Calculus). That sheet has a bunch of stick figures on it now.
Now can anyone tell me why only my right hand is cold yet both of my hands are equally exposed?
*sigh* I did have a point in mind when I started this post but as it typically does, the post dissolves into the driveling rambles of my mind. Well at least it let me have something to focus on while my mind recuperated from the slight depression that surfaced near the end of the day today. Well maybe it just distracted me but whatever, it is close enough.
Still rambling
Distracted
Words
grrr i rly wanna color on my wall
Ok, here is a question for you folk that aren't out there that just randomly resurfaced into my mind that was formed when analyzing what other people are doing
Do people subconciously, conciously as well, bring people close only to hurt them more?
Hmm I don't feel like addressing this topic right now though but I'll just let the question sit there anyway.
Hmm I'm thinking about starting to stay afterschool more to work on my homework and try to get it done. Although I'll need to find a place that is not the library, I love the library but the main problem is that it quite distracting and I need to find somewhere that is not distracting. If I need to I shall work in there, but an empty classroom would work wonderfully. Doubt I'll be able to do that though. As with most of my ideas though I'll probably not act on it without outside force, o well.

Well it's four so I'm getting off this computer and doing my homework, or attempting to :P
the first of the moog people is wanting than he can have
~We wrote a prelude