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I HATE HOT WEATHER. I t screws with my head so much. Makes me get frustrated with so much, destroys my concentration, quicker to anger and I get yelled at more because of getting annoyed faster cause it is harder to control myself when I'm annoyed.
I'm frustrated about everything right now. This heat, my inaility to do work right now, dad yelling at me for having work clothes out + my sweatpants i wear at night, having to mow lawn, having so much stuff to catch up with in school but can't seem to do @ home or inclass, nervousness about things like going into a bank to ask questions, college and what I'm going to do about it and after it, the fact that I can't write a damn 250 word essay about something for a college app, the fact that summer vaca is rapidly aproaching and that means very little seeing of friends, and so many othe things some that I can't tell anyone and other stuff to.
The only thing I like about summer vacation is the fact theres no school to worry about for 3 months but this summer I'm gonna be working for most of the summer so ya. I like school, I don't like the homework or Latin, most of the rest is fine although i would like t obe able to concentrate in Java though. *sigh* I love having a class with a lot of my friends in it but it doesn't make the environment for working much better, in fact it may make it more distracting. No offense to any of you who are reading this, but it makes sense. It's not the main thing though, I think its just A-lock + a few other things.

Well my headaches gone and frustration is down a bunch. Basement is nice and cool, one of the reasons y I spend much time down here in hotter months. Momo y do you insist on sitting on my mouse? Ug I'm probably gonna end up sleepwalking tonight, happens most often when I get frustrated. Just something from experience in the past.
Speaking of the past, I sorta wish I could be a kid again. No worries, no screwed up hormones, no job, no worries about the future, just living and playing. I can't control time as of yet so it's not gonna happen unless i all of a sudden become omnipotent. That would not be good if that happened, I know the power hungry psyco part of my mind would come and take over. The world be a blazing heap on flames and ashes within a few seconds, I don't even know if I would be able to catch myself before a roast everything including friends that I would take with me if I could at least have a little control. But I probably wouldn't. Meh this is just me beign pesismistic again. I don't truely know what would happen but human nature leads me to believe of the abuse of the power even if it's myself that had it. I don't rly want to think of myself as doing anything like but even if i didn't abuse it for awhile eventualy it would just consume my thoughts and actions and bad stuffs.

Ug one of the DD's on DA is pervish. Humans are so selfish.Sex, masturbation, antyhing of that sorts just cause it's easy "Happyness" and shows "Love". This is sorta going a little off of what Mouse said in her most recent entry. Sry if it seems like I'm always cpoying you with stuff but well when I read thigns it starts gears cranking alot, 'specially with many of my friends. I think I'm done with this topic for now though till the full part of it resurfaces from the maelstrom of my thoughts, memories and emotions.

I hate how I can't rly express my thoughts and emotions properly enough. I can't express them to the depths of what they are. This probably doesn't make much sense but well none of it rly makes much sense to me either.
Finally the water heater shut off, much less noise besides my music playing now. I have my entire library on shuffle right now and am listening to just anything that comes up. If I'm not mistaken one of the battle themes from Metroid Prime 2 is playing atm.

At some point I may actually try to write my college essay up here cause well I just can't do it in a formal way and so if I use the question as the basis for a blog post I may be able to use that as a guide for the essay itself or use the post with minor edits. Any help from you invisible non-commenting readers would be very much appreciated even if it doesn't help me directly.

Oh I may have a possible name for this blog but I'm gonna dwell on it more. The one I may be favoring more is the one Mouse suggested, but I think I may tweak it a little but iono depends on what my brain decides.

Damn hormones making me want to hit something or watever it is thats making me want to hit something.

Well tis almost 9:30, work accomplished @ home today = null for schoolwork, frustration levels for today = +a lot, depression/stress levels could be increasing to a critical point at a point in the near future.

Good night and sleep well to all of those that shall be sleeping and goo wakings to those who aren't.
Thx for reading you people who aren't there.
And pls comment, I'm not sure y I'm saying this but well ya.

Go forth and Moogify.
Moog Master Numbah one is off
*poof*